Blackout: Book One (The Leather & Lace Duet 1) by Janine Infante Bosco

Author:Janine Infante Bosco [Infante Bosco, Janine]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-03-28T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter Seventeen

Lacey

For the first time in our relationship, the roles were reversed, and I was the one overdosing. There was no bottle. No needle either. The poison killing me came disguised as everything I ever wished for and it was labeled love. Narcan could sometimes reverse the effects of a drug overdose but it couldn’t reverse the damage of a broken heart. So, there I laid the victim, drowning in heartache, wishing I hadn’t taken that last hit.

I shouldn’t have let him go, but I wasn’t thinking clearly, and his words, as true as they might be, they inflicted so much pain.

Too much pain.

I never thought it would hurt to be in the same room as the man I love. That I’d look him in the eye and wish he’d disappear. Everything he said, every fear he shared, they were all valid and all very possible. It’s nothing I didn’t know. Nothing I didn’t fear too. But once he spoke of them, once he said those things aloud, he put them in the universe, and I couldn’t bear that.

There’s this book, The Secret and the message between the pages says we create our destinies by what we put out in the world. If you believe you won’t amount to anything, you won’t. If you believe you can conquer any challenge, you will. It’s hard for someone with a failing mind to rely on positive energy, but when your faith is tested, it’s all you got.

I didn’t need Blackie tossing shade on the little light that remained shining and so, I acted out of grief. Instead of realizing we were both suffering, I ignored his feelings and let my own pain take away my common sense. It was just another selfish act to add to the long list.

A beep sounds, cueing me to leave a message.

“Blackie, I’m sorry,” I rasp. “I shouldn’t have asked you to leave. Please come home or at least answer the phone. I need to know you’re okay.” I pause, pushing away my glum thoughts. “I love you,” I add, barely audible.

Disconnecting the call, I lean forward and place the phone on the coffee table. My eyes slice to the bay window and I swallow the lump in my throat as the sun begins to rise. It’s the dawn of a new day and instead of waking up next to my husband, I’m left wondering if I sent him to wrestle his demons.

For a moment, I contemplate calling my father, but he doesn’t even know I’m pregnant. No one knows, well, except for Reina. I suppose I could call her, but she’s not going to send the cavalry out to search for my husband. The only thing I can do is pray for him.

For me.

For us.

For this baby.

Placing my hand over my flat stomach, I tear my eyes away from the window.

“We’re going to be okay,” I whisper. “You and me, whatever happens, however this plays out, we’re going to be okay.”

I’m not sure if I believe it, but I say it anyway.

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